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bad day.

personally.

You really piss me off,

although you might not think its my business there are things you do and dont say.

even during a harsh time your going through.

and thats one of the things you dont say,

why cant people just let people be happy?

stop trying to bring every down

its almost pathetic

aand i know i have no right to be a part of this,

but standing on the outside watching what your trying to do to her really makes me sick.

Like just let people be happy, stop trying to pin everyone against everyone else,

let us all just gt through highschoool and be in the real worl dwhere you couldve just walked away from stuff liek this,

and ohh ya you get mad and scared at what she says so you have you friends say stuff.

like seriously??

thatll really just make her want to do it more

grrrrrrrrrrrr

like rly rly rly pisses me offfff!
people need to grow up.

this isnt middle school anymore

and your about to be out with the big boys,

so lets put our big boy pants on

and stop being such a little bitch about it.

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But back to stuff that matters to me, i just signed up for classes and im excited times ten,

i dont get to slack off my senior year but its okay, ill work through it, though itll be though when you have friends that have all this free time, but anyways.

Today was actually pretty good, i'm not one to inteerfere but i feel like its get to the point where i really need to. I surprised how far we've come, but im really glad, i wish you werent leaving though were just starting to get really really really close and i want it to stay this way,

and as much as im being to love you and i know were upset today, but sometimes you gotta think

it wasnt that big of a deal. but when you coming to chill and talk like tofay theres certain people that dont need to be involved, like i said not that big of deal, but the less shes around my boy, the happier i am. =]

I cant wait to start working with animals and little kkids,

well twilight came out on dvd today and is on pause so im gunna go finish watching it! =]

my boy,

your my life,

i dove in head first for you and im swimming in the deep end for you,

Im so glad I didnt wait and take the stairs.

The water feels fine, now come and join me baby.

you

cover it up, sweep it under a rug, and hope it'll all just go away if you ignore it
but with the very next fight it all just comes out again,
and ten times worse than before

I really reeally dont know what to do anymore
i'm having such mood swings im going from balling my eyes out to just being pissed
annd now im both,

god, i hate this.
why does everyone want it so bad its painful

I dont

even know what to say seriously, im so infurated
Love?
really, is that what this is because its a piece of crap.
Love make you feel like shit, and it sucks then.
Sure it has its nice ups
but im being to wonder if the ups are worth the downs.
theyre so over-dramatic and hard and ridiculous and i can't stand it anymore.
I'm, seriously wondering if the ups are worth it anymore maybe I just want to be neutral so i wont have the terrible downs anymore

hmmm.....

You're a part of this world because you want to be.

hmmm.... Highschool, I can't wait to get into pepperdine, i love where I am and all but I'm sick of highschool. I just want to be in college to see all my hard work be paid off, It's hard to stay focused on a goal when you never get to see the benefits of it.

You're a part of my life because I want you to be.

I think it'll be alot different too, and to live in dorms and come hom eon the weekends, I'm glad I don't plan on going far away.

I'm a part of your lif ebecause I want to be.

I love the people in my life, it's so great, I'm really frustrated with school though and expectations. Anyways, highschool is too filled with girls who will do anything to get guys and guys who want nothing but to get into the girls pants, It's really frustrating, but I'm glad I've found by niche, I'm really happy where i am.

Sit under a tree with me,
just staring at the stars,
hold me and tell me that you love me,
and show me,
Kiss me pouring rain,
and never ever let go

I love you baby, You're my everything, I'm seriously so unbelievably ecstatic, I dont think it could be anymore perfect and surreal. You make me smile when it's the last thing I want to do



I want to be with you forever

My greateast fear is one day I'll wake up and you won't be there anymore.

"Because I said so"

I think those are my four least favorite words, haha
I've come to realize, like actually realize, parents just care about you,
sure sometimes they seem completely unfair and unrealistic and you get pissed, but they really just love you and want whats best for your future, which sometimes isn't what you want now,
It sucks and I don't like it, but at least I understad it now.

• My sport is your sports punishment
• The faster you run the faster you're done
• Real athletes run. All others just play games
• Cross Country: no substitutions, no time outs, and nobody sits the bench.
• Eat. Sleep. Run. *# 1 & 2 are optional

I miss running, it got my frustrations out, it was peaceful, helped me focus and made me feel accomplished, I want to start again, I really really miss it.

And I think it'd be really good ot have for college.

It really is addicting, I can't honest believe I'm saying I miss waking p at 8 am on weekends to go run 6 miles, while all my friends are sleeping, haha It's like a drug, I got addicted and now i miss it like hell. I'm going to get my 4k time down this year its my goal to make it on the xc team at Pepperdine last year (out of just the top 50) their fastest runner was: 14:43.18 and slowest was: 16:03.39 so if I can just get an easy medium somewhere in their then I'll be good, and running on the beach, oh gosh that'd be tough but so so so amazing.

I want to start running again.

hmmmmm, well I'm done rambling for now, there's more i want to say but I don't feel like typing anymore, so I'll do it later.

I love your smile, you laugh, they way you look at me, the way you hold me, I love everything about you, never leave me.

Trying Out

Blogspot,
everyone seems to love it so i decided to get one and see what the fuss was about =]