Pepperdine

has been fantastic though everything is so new, sp many people.
I cannot wait to be here in the fall of 2010!!

this life this summer
is amazing

Life

is so phenomanol =]
One small little bumb, i wouldnt even call it a problem,
its just like a bug it comes around and annoys you a little bit,
and then flies away to be with all the other annoying little bugs,
haha I really like that analogy,

haha anyways,
Perfect bf,
perfect best friend,
perfect family,
and perfect summer.
My life is adding up exactly how I want it too,
and I get to spend it on the beach, making my life all the better,
because in a year, I'll be away from all the little bugs,
and on to people with bigger problems!
At pepperdine! I hope.! haha yay!
=]

Happy 4th,
this is by far gunna be the best one in a long time =]

You

are a stuck up superficail bitch,
and yes I am talking about you =].

I did nothing to you, to this day!
but thats cool
honestly I dont give a shit what you think,
what I do care about is my bf. =]
So ya, he'll always listen to me, over you.
Get over it =].
and get a life! :D
:O
"oh no you did not"
Oh yes, I just did.

Pepperdine

in six days, no flordia, amazing bf to see on the weekends and when i get back, this will be the best summer ever, nothing n ruin this for me =]

I've worked since I was 8 for this and i'm finanly getting it =]:D ill miss my baby but ill see him alot, almost 5 months, I can't believe it.

This is the most amazing feeling ever =]

blehhh

being sick sucks but i'm almost over it yay!


I cant wait for pepperdine,
and spending time with my boy
and my bestie,
no drama this summer
everything will be perfect =]

I havent really had any drama at all recently
I'm really happy,
don't get me wrong there's been attempts and fails
because they realize that I don't care
there are two things that ge to me,
messing with my bf, and messing with my best friends
otherwise I dont really care
haha, waste your time=]




Love me or hate me its still an obessession.

Keep talking shit, your making me famous =]

Haha, funny what people do when they have no life.


hahaha
tummy tuckkk!

well

that was really surprising,
haha
last thing i expected but hey, not my place so ya.

Hahah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBIE<3<3<3
i hope i was amazing i had fun =]

SOOO

excited!
and he has no clue


this is gunna be great =]

ohhhhhhhhh

you just wait

:)

this is gunna be fun

Not Everything Is Perfect In Paradise There Will Always Be Haters

Let me say now if you dont like cursing. stop here, cause i got worked up in this blog =]
I love you baby, everything about you, and everythin is perfect.
but even in paradise there are haters.
and boundary breakers.
Seriously, he obviously happy with me get your own man, he left you for me for a reason, he's obviously not guna go back.


You know whats even worse?
I felt bad! terrbile when he left you for me, I felt like such a bitch and i did everthing i could to make things between us better, and make you happy and okay. I talked about helping you with your family problems. and thisis how you repay.

Seriously girls learn some bounaries,
les just say texting someone elses boyfriend saying lets hang out alone, without your girlfriend
ad he says no, and then you come back by saying how hot he is, how amazing he kisses and you want to fuck him? wow.......
Your soooo lucky girl. Thats all i've got to say so lucky. to disrespect me like that, ad go after my boyfriend like that, and then say that i'm an annoying bitch who needs to shut up becuase i got mad.
WOW! cause only a totally nutcase wouldnt be mad about that, cause he was with me so guess what get over it. if you only knew the half of it hhahahahahaha
wowza.
things people do and say,
thank god ive got amazing boyfriend who bitched you out and made me you feel like crap. =]


touch him, look at him, talk to him. and i will get so much more mad about this.
You SUCH a big tough sophmore =] you complain about all the shit in your life, and how its "so much and so hard to handle" cry cry cryblah blah blah SHUT UP!
maybe we'd feel bad for you if you didnt do it to yourself.
stay away from me and my boyfriend,
im sooo excited to be done with highschool and out of these crazy bitches at least in the real world you can actually walk away and never have to see them again,
im furious,
ive lost all pity, respect and any positive feelings to you
to rephrase what as a wise woman once said "Fucking blonde homewreckers"

haha.
your sooo tough on your dirtbike, calling me scrawny and saying you could kick my ass hahahaha
what are you 5 foot? no muscles? im a runner, im actually tone. i could pick you up and throw you.
BUTCH LESBOOOOO! you want to be so manly ad tough, and you wonder why my byfriend doesnt want you! :] hahaha

oh wow that entire thing was very bitchy
but sorry,
i needed to vent, im very angry. and im always nice, everyone gets bitchy sometimes.
take a step back over the boundaries and never come back, because let me warn you now the border patrol is waiting to put you ack in your place. =]

hahah
anyways, my 3 month is sat!
and then debbies bday (got present)
mandi's bday (ahh)
adams bday (no idea what to do)
alex's bday (no clue what to get)
alex's party(yay!)
so busy

and ap tests, chem testes, driving test, computer test, on top of pepperdine, collge and tons of hw.
busy busy busy
and super stressed


but anyways,
I'm getting all my dreams fulliflied, and despite this little incident im extremely happy. and im actually okay with it, i knew people would be jealous and try to ruin it, and thats okay, theyre pathetic and not happy.
I'm ectatic and on top of the world, I have the perfect boyfriend, amazing friends, my family is great, my grades are great, i got into pepperdie for the summer, im getting my license. everything is perfect! =]



dont touch bitch.

Bitter Sweet

3 weeks in
malibu
no parents
beach
sunshine
at my favorite college


no boyfriend
no friends
waking up at 8 everyday to take college classes
bf getting drunk around girls when im not there...
not gettig held by my bf

Why do i feel like im still not good enough
and can still do more
i got into the summer classes. i was 1 of 50 chossen of all the kids across the world to apply
ive wanted this since I was 8. Ive got it, into one of the most competetive prestigous schools on the westcoast, and getting into this makes my chance of getting in there for college ten times higher,
so why do i feel this way?
why dont i feel amazing?


I get my license next week too,
i wont get to drive just yet
but im still getting it

and even that isnt helping

theres so much going on its crazy,
why is there always so much
i wanna lay back and relax.
weekend soon

im hoping its a good one, :):/:?

=/

bad day.

personally.

You really piss me off,

although you might not think its my business there are things you do and dont say.

even during a harsh time your going through.

and thats one of the things you dont say,

why cant people just let people be happy?

stop trying to bring every down

its almost pathetic

aand i know i have no right to be a part of this,

but standing on the outside watching what your trying to do to her really makes me sick.

Like just let people be happy, stop trying to pin everyone against everyone else,

let us all just gt through highschoool and be in the real worl dwhere you couldve just walked away from stuff liek this,

and ohh ya you get mad and scared at what she says so you have you friends say stuff.

like seriously??

thatll really just make her want to do it more

grrrrrrrrrrrr

like rly rly rly pisses me offfff!
people need to grow up.

this isnt middle school anymore

and your about to be out with the big boys,

so lets put our big boy pants on

and stop being such a little bitch about it.

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But back to stuff that matters to me, i just signed up for classes and im excited times ten,

i dont get to slack off my senior year but its okay, ill work through it, though itll be though when you have friends that have all this free time, but anyways.

Today was actually pretty good, i'm not one to inteerfere but i feel like its get to the point where i really need to. I surprised how far we've come, but im really glad, i wish you werent leaving though were just starting to get really really really close and i want it to stay this way,

and as much as im being to love you and i know were upset today, but sometimes you gotta think

it wasnt that big of a deal. but when you coming to chill and talk like tofay theres certain people that dont need to be involved, like i said not that big of deal, but the less shes around my boy, the happier i am. =]

I cant wait to start working with animals and little kkids,

well twilight came out on dvd today and is on pause so im gunna go finish watching it! =]

my boy,

your my life,

i dove in head first for you and im swimming in the deep end for you,

Im so glad I didnt wait and take the stairs.

The water feels fine, now come and join me baby.

you

cover it up, sweep it under a rug, and hope it'll all just go away if you ignore it
but with the very next fight it all just comes out again,
and ten times worse than before

I really reeally dont know what to do anymore
i'm having such mood swings im going from balling my eyes out to just being pissed
annd now im both,

god, i hate this.
why does everyone want it so bad its painful

I dont

even know what to say seriously, im so infurated
Love?
really, is that what this is because its a piece of crap.
Love make you feel like shit, and it sucks then.
Sure it has its nice ups
but im being to wonder if the ups are worth the downs.
theyre so over-dramatic and hard and ridiculous and i can't stand it anymore.
I'm, seriously wondering if the ups are worth it anymore maybe I just want to be neutral so i wont have the terrible downs anymore

hmmm.....

You're a part of this world because you want to be.

hmmm.... Highschool, I can't wait to get into pepperdine, i love where I am and all but I'm sick of highschool. I just want to be in college to see all my hard work be paid off, It's hard to stay focused on a goal when you never get to see the benefits of it.

You're a part of my life because I want you to be.

I think it'll be alot different too, and to live in dorms and come hom eon the weekends, I'm glad I don't plan on going far away.

I'm a part of your lif ebecause I want to be.

I love the people in my life, it's so great, I'm really frustrated with school though and expectations. Anyways, highschool is too filled with girls who will do anything to get guys and guys who want nothing but to get into the girls pants, It's really frustrating, but I'm glad I've found by niche, I'm really happy where i am.

Sit under a tree with me,
just staring at the stars,
hold me and tell me that you love me,
and show me,
Kiss me pouring rain,
and never ever let go

I love you baby, You're my everything, I'm seriously so unbelievably ecstatic, I dont think it could be anymore perfect and surreal. You make me smile when it's the last thing I want to do



I want to be with you forever

My greateast fear is one day I'll wake up and you won't be there anymore.

"Because I said so"

I think those are my four least favorite words, haha
I've come to realize, like actually realize, parents just care about you,
sure sometimes they seem completely unfair and unrealistic and you get pissed, but they really just love you and want whats best for your future, which sometimes isn't what you want now,
It sucks and I don't like it, but at least I understad it now.

• My sport is your sports punishment
• The faster you run the faster you're done
• Real athletes run. All others just play games
• Cross Country: no substitutions, no time outs, and nobody sits the bench.
• Eat. Sleep. Run. *# 1 & 2 are optional

I miss running, it got my frustrations out, it was peaceful, helped me focus and made me feel accomplished, I want to start again, I really really miss it.

And I think it'd be really good ot have for college.

It really is addicting, I can't honest believe I'm saying I miss waking p at 8 am on weekends to go run 6 miles, while all my friends are sleeping, haha It's like a drug, I got addicted and now i miss it like hell. I'm going to get my 4k time down this year its my goal to make it on the xc team at Pepperdine last year (out of just the top 50) their fastest runner was: 14:43.18 and slowest was: 16:03.39 so if I can just get an easy medium somewhere in their then I'll be good, and running on the beach, oh gosh that'd be tough but so so so amazing.

I want to start running again.

hmmmmm, well I'm done rambling for now, there's more i want to say but I don't feel like typing anymore, so I'll do it later.

I love your smile, you laugh, they way you look at me, the way you hold me, I love everything about you, never leave me.

Trying Out

Blogspot,
everyone seems to love it so i decided to get one and see what the fuss was about =]