Bitter Sweet

3 weeks in
malibu
no parents
beach
sunshine
at my favorite college


no boyfriend
no friends
waking up at 8 everyday to take college classes
bf getting drunk around girls when im not there...
not gettig held by my bf

Why do i feel like im still not good enough
and can still do more
i got into the summer classes. i was 1 of 50 chossen of all the kids across the world to apply
ive wanted this since I was 8. Ive got it, into one of the most competetive prestigous schools on the westcoast, and getting into this makes my chance of getting in there for college ten times higher,
so why do i feel this way?
why dont i feel amazing?


I get my license next week too,
i wont get to drive just yet
but im still getting it

and even that isnt helping

theres so much going on its crazy,
why is there always so much
i wanna lay back and relax.
weekend soon

im hoping its a good one, :):/:?